Day 114: Fear

Fear
By Batsheva 3/25/10

I feel it
Feel it
Coming near
That awful thing
Which I most fear
I don't need
To say its name
For named
Or not
The fear's the same
I fret
I sweat
My palms are wet
Oh why can't this
Be over yet?
I don't know why
I'm so afraid
I wish this fear
Would simply fade
But no wish
Will make it go away
The fear is here
And here to stay

Unless

I choose
To take a stand
And tell this fear
Get off my land!
You leave my brain
Right now, today!
Take the next train
And go away!
Don't need this fear
Not one small bit
I'm choosing
To get over it
This brain is mine
And by and large
'Tis I who's usually
In charge
So I can just take back
That mode
And tell this fear
To hit the road!

And if that fear
Still will not leave
Well, this is what
I do believe
Even if
The fear does stay
I can move past it
Anyway
For courage is not
The lack of fear
It's standing up
To fear
Right here.